I don't know what to do anymore. Everything I feel or think seems to be the wrong thing.

I am very tired.

I have been fighting a cough for weeks now. I've used that as an excuse and gained weight. I hate that.

Everything seem so uncertain and I need reassurance but I get less and less of it. This isn't really a good time to bring up my needs. I feel as though I am dying inside, and it doesn't even matter. I suppose it doesn't matter. Soon I will be unemployed, on my own and alone. I need to be strong now. There is so much I need to do ... I HAVE to find a job soon.