On warm summer days when I was little we would walk down to the railroad track with a handful of pennies. We would lay them down on the tracks and wait. Sometimes we walked on over to the swinging bridge, or walk on down the tracks, others we just played by the tracks. We waited for the pennies to transform. We waited for the train to press them into something new. I loved the game of finding the new pressed penny in the old dirty gravel of the track. The hot copper, shiny, promising. It had been a penny. Worth something to the world. Somehow it was worth more to me after. I liked it best when Old Abe's face was still there and longer and more somber than ever. A shadow of the penny it had been remained, but the work of art that it was overwhelmed me, warmed me, stung my hand.
I'm a little sad that I never pressed pennies in Newnan. All those walks over the tracks and not a single penny. I may only have the one chance to fix that. I have a month to save my pennies. I should, and should make jewelry of the results. Those tracks remember more than I do. Those tracks and I began with tears, and to tears we oft returned, but there were moments of such joy, beauty and gratitude as well. My last memory of them was not one of which I am proud. I think that is even more reason to end it with a penny. To wear a reminder that I am not THAT GIRL any more.
Now I spend a portion of everyday on a train. To work. From work.
Had it not been for tracks like these I suppose my life would be unrecognizable to me. I can't fathom. It is tracks like this that move the coal that fed me from before I was born. Coal is the heart of Kentucky, a deep black heart that could be a diamond but isn't quite done yet. And my families bread and butter went from the coal to the train cars.