Monday

With the weekend over and the phone still off
Response from work email
After msgs sent on every platform .... making me that desperate girl

What to ...
Believe
Think
Feel
Know

I do not like this person I become.
I want a love that strengthens and delights me,
My love confuses and saddens me.

I must be:
Polite
Peaceful
Honest

Perhaps it is just a feeling that will pass,
but I am tired.
Tired of wanting.
Tired of working on things.
Tired of having lost my smiles.

I am not in love.
I do not like this.

From the silence of the mountaintop
As the dawn came down to day
And the fire of Autumn rolled like the sea
I was never more ready to begin something new.